Stuff, not nonsense.

[mayamaia]

One thing I like about child care is that I start making up random lullabies all the time. They are simple, sometimes repetitive, and always lovely. They calm me as much as the children.

I'm going to get my drivers license again. I intend to keep it secret from my parents for as long as possible - so Papa won't buy me a car again - and to use it very little. It's not that I don't like driving, but I don't like having a car or relying on it. I am happier allowing a slower pace for my life. But the license itself is useful - not just for the emergencies my father preached at me, but also for special occasions. I have a wonderful, nefarious plan. It should be glorious. Muah ha ha.

I am weary, but calm. Life at Elisabeth's is uncomplicated; I have a well-defined purpose here: to take care of the children and Elisabeth. I include her because she is as delicate to handle as they, and tends to need my presence more urgently. (They suffer very little by having only Elisabeth around; she suffers much from lack of rest. This could affect them long-term, but does very little short-term.) So my responsibilities are mostly child care, but some food preparation. I feel useful in an environment where I WISH to be so. So life is easy for the next day or so.

Comments

[animate-mush.livejournal.com]

Your thoughts about cars are almost precisely my thoughts about cell phones. And cars, to some extent. My father made me get a driver's license when I went to college, and when I was commuting from Monterey to Santa Cruz one summer, he made me get a cell phone as well (which I gave back the moment the summer was over). I don't have an Ohio driver's license yet because they won't accept the religious marriage certificate as proof of name change (losers) - but when you're married to a guy who drives a fiat it can be nice to be a passenger. [note: I don't drive the fiat - I don't dare. I don't really believe she'd let me, and I'd be terrified of running her into something].

It sounds like your time there is being really wonderful for everyone. I know what you mean about the asymmetry of suffering. I'm glad that you can help preserve sanity and familial well-being. Stress kills.

Be happy in all that you do!

[mayamaia.livejournal.com]

I think part of the reason I like the cell phone is that I got it before anyone told me to. Plus I like electronic gadgets, especially if I can get as much usefulness out of them as is reasonable. My phone is my camera, my walkman, my flashlight, my alarm clock, my portable voice recorder, and general storage. I use it constantly, but I don't let it use me - when I don't want to get calls, I don't take them, easy as that.

[mayamaia.livejournal.com]

Enrico Fermi drove a Fiat.

[animate-mush.livejournal.com]

AWESOME!

Was it a nice one? Because Fiat is Italy's equivalent of Ford - everybody's got one and by and large they're ugly boxes.

But the Fiat 124 Spider 2000 is beautiful. Especially when she goes!

[mayamaia.livejournal.com]

Heh, no. It was a boring one. There's a great story about it... hey, I think I'll post it so everyone can enjoy it.