Roleplaying

[mayamaia]

I embarrassed myself at the game yesterday. I tried not to, but someone started complaining about having to give up the plot points he was saving (Hey-hey, same problem as last week) and I got pissed.

I got none of them this session, like the first one. It seems that I will continue to get none, since I have the same problem I had with the Exalted game.... how the heck am I supposed to do something COOL by someone else's standards, when everything I want to do gets shot down?

I both love and hate plot points.

I get shy, you see. I try and try to find something I can do that'll work, and well, and make the game more fun and make sense, and then I try to suggest it and

NO

DAGNABIT. Not fun for me. I end up hiding in my little cave until I get pissed off enough to snap at someone or do something BIG and GRAND (which pisses off someone else, but darnit, I had to) .... and now I'm down to 2 plot points where I'd had 4 at the beginning of the session so now I have to hoard them more, and he's COMPLAINING that he has to use some because he has 12?!

GRRRRRR.

I talked to Jeff about it while he drove me home, and we'll see what we can do to fix the me-feeling-uncreative-and/or-useless situation. But I get the feeling that I just suck at this type of RPG.

Comments

[atlasimpure.livejournal.com]

The trick is to do what YOUR CHARACTER would do.

It's not a game of plot point acquisition, it's about the characters and the story they make.

You can be an excellent roleplayer when you put your mind to it and I think you're getting to caught up in the game mechanics.

I think you'll find that once you start BEING the doc, plot points will just happen.

[mayamaia.livejournal.com]

Look.

That's part of the problem. She's not a hero type, and not the type to crack jokes or say lines that Jeff's going to reward with cookies. If she joins a group to go to the planet's surface, she's not going to be talking or interacting with anybody much but the people she's with.

I do exactly what I think she would do. I'm a darn good roleplayer that way, and don't act until and unless I think she will. I DO NOT METAGAME. That's what I meant when I said I tried to make my actions make sense.

It doesn't mean I don't try to make it interesting. When she's been up for three hours that feel like 24, is forced to do surgery she's only read about in textbooks and has felt she was about to die in three different ways..... she'll flip out and nail everyone to the floor.

But other than that, she's shy and bookish, and BACKGROUND. And I, as a player, feel useless because she might as well be an NPC.

[atlasimpure.livejournal.com]

Jeff's not a dumb GM, he's going to make events and even whole episodes that cater to your character.

[mayamaia.livejournal.com]

I know... and I'm scared that she won't live up to them. We never got to that point in the Exalted game (with a similar character) and the only scene catered to her just... didn't work the way Jeff planned. Because her reaction was NOT what he expected, she didn't get the things he'd wanted to give her. And I couldn't have acted in any other way without being railroaded.