Things

Saw Wall-E. It was terribly cute, and I think I have developed a Pavlov responce to robots that involves a lot of sighing and eloquence. (You should see this one picture I drew a few months ago, of a girl sleeping in a robot's lap while it reads.)(It's a very nifty robot. Well, for me anyway.)

Also, I had fun at CJ's party last night. We played Apples to Apples and Mafia and I talked with CJ a bit before going. Then I walked back to Barrett's place which must have been four miles by the time it took. I spent a lot of that time thinking about who I am, who I want to be and what I can do about it - not really getting very far, but getting a few more options.

One of the problems with boys is that at school they're all very young. A few don't look quite so young, but the age and experience are still very different, and outside my options. If I were to get so weak as to go out with one of them, I think it would be really bad for all concerned. All the same, I look forward to seeing Nick again (all tanned cause he lives in Pasadena?) because he's a gamer who's easy on the eyes. Which is all the more reason to consider asking some nice guy my own age out, just to get off the field.

Also, I had fun all weekend hanging out with Barrett and Kathryn and Rob and a little bit with Jeff. Slightly amusing is that we all went to Game Kastle yesterday when Jeff wasn't there - I tried and failed to tempt Barrett to get Agricola (alas!) and we checked out a few independent RPGs.

I should get home soon. I don't want to. I want the world to go back to some time from which I can make things work out - like last January or March, so I can apply for internships and have had a productive summer. Or earlier. Maybe I'd settle for getting whisked away to a place where I just have to work for survival and not have to think about the things I do...

I would draw a big heart around him if I were at home.