*shakes head*

....yeah, I may be far gone.

I just thought, after composing an answer to a friend's worries, "He could probably use getting hooked on Doctor Who." Followed by "Oh come on Franny, Doctor Who won't solve everyone's problems."

Of course, to be fair, Doctor Who WAS a big part of how I transitioned back to school. Every time in those first few months that I found something intellectually difficult, I just told myself I was brilliant in the Doctor's voice, so why shouldn't I be able to? And the Doctor just makes the idea of knowledge exciting. And... he has this infectious sense that nothing's impossible.

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We love Rachel because she listens to me rant and ramble without treating it as something she has to fix or as something she doesn't want to hear, without pretending more interest than is there.

I wish for more conviction in my decision-making. The only course I can seem to follow with any conviction is that which allows me to remain as I am in mind. The fact that I have changed so much in mind is a factor less of personal effort and more of points of breakage. I want to be able to change myself and keep my soul intact and unbruised.

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*rocking out on headphones*

Yeah, random people in the Library. Get confused.

As for me, loud music therapy. ...aaaand what the heck, random cousin Jeffra! Whose mother is a librarian in San Jose! I haven't seen her in ages! ...and whose grandmother, my great aunt, just died. Right. Back to the loud music then, and it looks like I might just end up having dinner with her when she's done with her tour.

Um. Yeah, there we have events mirroring the weirdness in my mind... slightly creeped out now.

Slight sarcasm

And if you look to your left you will see Franny, in her customary position in front of the computer, crying quietly. As you can see, she has no sense of propriety, letting her emotions get the better of her like that - made only minorly worse for the fact that it's a public place.

Aha, she is posting it on livejournal, a publicly acceptable forum for displays of emotion! This removes some of the stain. But this young woman still needs to learn how to turn off those emotions of hers or she'll never get along in life.
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