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[mayamaia]

I have to write a very short paper on Camus and martyrs and suffering. It is already hours overdue, but I'm sending it in online and I trust the teacher to be merciful.

The material I'm reading for it, especially an essay about the El Salvador massacre, is shooting memories into my mind and the messages about honesty and courage and things are making me cry.

I am afraid. I am very afraid, but I have a story that I've kept to myself for so very long - and it's like it's trying to crawl it's way out my throat but destroying my voice in the process.