oof

Feeling rather jumpy. I'm on campus for quick arrangements for job and so on, and kind of scared and kind of depressed and a teense manic.

It's easier when I can pretend it's all boy trouble.

When, someday, I have a career and a place to live on my own, and enough stability to keep my place comfortable and clean, I wonder if I'll be anything like I am now. I wonder where I'll find my happiness then.